After a week of Yazoo City Disaster relief, the rest of the corps began returning to campus and we started out-processing. Now here we are at the end. Today is graduation and, after much struggle and determination, all of my corps members will be walking. I am so proud to see them cross the stage. I am also having some severe empty nesting feelings. It is strange trying to process this year. These people are my friends in a way, my peers in a way, but also they are not in a way. It's hard to sort out the mixed feelings- relief, anger, stress, sadness, happiness, pride... I haven't been sleeping well all week.
Last night we had the corps member banquet and I got to hand out the Leadership Award to Michelle. She deserved the recognition. Listening to everyone's speeches and reflections finally got me to the mindset that it is coming to an end. Before last night everything felt like a barreling train headed off the track. Now I am beginning to feel things wrapping up. It's difficult to describe all the thoughts and feelings I have been having this week- and I honestly have been so busy I haven't had any time to attempt to process and deal with them.
But regardless, by tomorrow at noon I will be back to being Casey- no longer team leader of river 4. I will have a few days on campus with the other TLs to close campus and start looking towards the next steps in our lives. Mainly we will spend the time celebrating and soaking in the last few moments we have together.
And soon I will be on the road up towards home.
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